today's post is a very special post. i don't post very often anymore. but this is an important one. today was my sister's 14th birthday. well. i guess technically yesterday now because it's after midnight. but i haven't slept yet so i'm still in december.26th-boxing-day-mode. but stepping away from the technicalities of it all. let's take a step back and reminisce shall we? not many people know this. but. my sister was born because of me. now before all you perverts and weirdos make your jokes and comments let me explain this. for as long as i can remember, i always wanted a baby sister..... maybe it was since my brother was born? haha no that is a joke. stephen's great too. but for real, starting from a point in my life i just wanted a younger sister soooo badly. i know this because in my grade one journal, i have one entry about how badly i wanted a baby sister and i even drew a picture of a baby that was supposed to be my sister. i remember nagging to my parents too. that i wanted a baby sister. i really wanted a sister. give me a sister. give me a sister. when i was little. i used to pray every single night before i went to bed. it was ALWAYS the same prayer too. first i would pray that vampires/draculas wouldn't come in my room while i slept and bite me. this was because i was afraid of vampires, especially after one of my friends CLAIMED to have been bitten by one in her sleep. she had marks to prove it. second prayer was that my brother and i wouldn't get kidnapped. i was really afraid of being kidnapped for some reason. maybe it's cause i lived in east vancouver. and third i would pray for a baby sister. same prayer requests, everynight. for like10 years. well i was only 7 years old ..... so probably more like. 3 years i guess. anyways!! then. 1992. my mom became pregnant and i was ecstatic. we didn't know if it was a boy or girl, but i knew it HAD to be a girl. and although i wouldn't have minded a baby brother (i GUESS), i would've been super dissapointed if my mom had a baby boy. i don't really remember this time in my life too clearly, but i do remember it being exciting. preparing for the baby. thinking of baby names. wondering what kind of games we would play together, etc. december.26.1992. i woke up and my dad had brought home mcdonalds big breakfast for me and my brother. we always used to have that, but i don't even know if mcdonalds sells those anymore. anyways, big breakfast. and ofcourse me and my brother were all, "yay! mcdonalds!". and then my dad told us the mcdonalds was here because ums was going to have a baby now and couldn't make us breakfast/lunch. i remember i wanted to go to the hospital too. but my dad said i wasn't allowed. a babysitter came.. one of the neighborhood korean grannies and my mom and my dad were off. this was in the morning sometime. maybe like 9 or 10. and the whole day. i anxiousley waited by the phone. literally. i was sooo curious and couldn't wait. after 1, i became VERY anxious and i started calling the hospital looking for john suk. i think the first call was around 2. and no baby yet :(:( then around 4~5ish my dad finally called and told me the baby had been born. a baby sister. i knew it!! go hannah go hannah. later that night my dad came to get me and my brother and we all went to see my sister. i know people say all babies look the same and what not. and everything thinks their baby is different and they are the best. but haeli really was the best. she was actually pretty. a pretty baby. she didn't look all disgusting and new-born looking either. not to be cheesy, but she was perfect. i remember being sad when we had to leave my mom and sister in the hospital. and me my brother and my dad went to have dinner, and i couldn't stop telling all the people in the restaurant that i had a new baby sister............... ok that part is not true. i probably only told one person, and that's because he knew my dad and he asked. but either way. a few days later it was the day to bring my sister home from the hospital. this. i remember clearly. we were driving home in the car and i wanted to carry her in my arms. not my mom, ME and only me. and my parents let me because they knew how much i had been waiting for this day. i sat in the back seat with my baby sister in my arms and it was snowing that day. not a lot, but enough to make everything outside pretty. and we drove home like that the whole way. me holding my sister in the backseat of the car, with the snow falling gently outside. i was only 8 years old. i had wanted a sister so badly, and i got it. on boxing day. a gift from God...it couldn't have been anything else. prayers come true: i've never been bitten by a vampire, and i've never been kidnapped either. i was young, so it could seem that i simply just wanted a toy. a real life baby is better than a cabbage patch baby right? well if that's the case, my sister is a toy that at age 22, i'm still not sick of. she is, and will always be, my favourite. i've never been jealous at all. my sister grew up with everything. she is the baby and everyone spoiled her like mad. but i have never been jealous. as a matter of fact, maybe i even spoil her the most. i want the best for her and i want her to be happy. everything i couldn't have, i want her to have and more. and i always appreciate and am fascinated at what a great kid she is. hm, i guess she's not a kid anymore. haeli was literally the perfect baby. she never cried. well ofcourse she cried, but not excessively and not annoyingly either. she never whined and complained and she never ever asked for anything like all kids do. even to this day she doesn't ask for anything. i used to be one of those kids that couldn't go in to a store with the parents without kicking and screaming for a toy, but my sister is the complete opposite. she was never ever like that, and she isn't til this day. she is selfless, always thinking about other people, caring, thoughtful and overall, a well-rounded good good.. amazing person. she's also very smart too. and not to mention talented too.  
my life is filled with great joy because i have my sister. i would do anything/everything for her in a heartbeat. hands down. haeli. you are the twinkle in unnie's eye. and don't you forget it.  
happy 14th birthday sister suk. unnie loves you. come give me a hug when you see this. | 
